Sunday, 24 April 2016

Learning Life

Hello... It's me... I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet... To go over, everything... Ok, enough of that!

Yes it's me! Remember? The one who started this blog, and does a horrible job at updating it? That's me... The last time I posted was 14 months ago... Eh hem... 

There will be quite a bit for me to talk about, but I'll do it over a few posts. I think I'll start off with the most important thing that has happened to me... Becoming an "adult"... 

I say "adult", because I never felt like one when the time came, and I still don't to this day, even if I will be 20 next month. What does it mean to be an adult anyways? Perhaps because I'm asking that question it just proves that I'm not one... Anyways! 

Becoming an adult has changed my world quite a bit actually. Maybe more than I wanted it to. I've been through quite the journey, of good, and a fair bit of bad as well. But here's something I've come to realize, and you can judge whether or not this makes me "adult" worthy... If I didn't have challenges, I would never grow. I've learned that sometimes the things I didn't want to happen ended up teaching me more than the things I've planned. I've also learned that when facing challenges, I have a choice to make. I can choose to let the challenge overcome me, or I can choose to overcome the challenge. This is part and parcel of having a disability and certainly isn't new to me, but it has become more real to me in the almost two years of "adulthood". Challenges can come in many different forms, and they can be physical, mental, or both. Turning 18 was a lot of both for me. My coming of age meant that I would lose more than half of the coverage and support from the government that I received as a child. Trying to live my life with the new lack of support has been extremely difficult. I still require the same types of medical equipment (which is ridiculously expensive by the way... Just to give you an idea, my new wheelchair cost $38,000), I still need therapy every week to manage pain and be able to function, and I am still required to see a seating specialist to help with my very complex seating system for my wheelchair. All of this has become so much more stressful ever since I lost my full coverage and has definitely provided me with a challenge, one that I believe is shameful and unnecessary if I'm being honest. I won't say that all the mental challenges I've been through were negative, because I believe they've helped me become more mature and given me many more useful tools. Most of this resulted from my work with FIRE, which I will be posting about later. My journey with FIRE has been one of constant learning, and most of it has been life changing and extremely rewarding. I don't think I'd be the person I am today without God, my mother, and FIRE... 

So... We have a lot of catching up to do! And we shall... Soon, very soon... Stay tuned! 

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